Stuck!!

Oh where to begin....... I hate that most of the three blogs I have posted have been negative, but I am having some difficulties right now! So we currently only have one boy, Preston, who is two and the absolute JOY of my life!! I don't know what we did before we had him. However, we have been trying to get pregnant since LAST FREAKING JULY!!! I have infertility/am infertile (however you say it). There. I said it. And needless to say it hasn't been working. So we have been and are currently doing infertility treatments, which is fantastic except for the cost. Our insurance really doesn't cover anything so it is all out of pocket and every extra penny we have that we aren't using for bills is going to the infertility fund. So I am majorly STRESSED!! And on another note, I have been working at Shopko for the last 14 months. I know, i know, Sad, Right?? Well the reason I have is because of this: Kacey works at Tramcor as a diesel mechanic. Great job, not so great hours. During the school year he rotates morning and swing shifts- either 6 am to 3 pm, or 10 am to 7 pm.... So I would really rather not work, but I feel that I am perfectly able being that I have no newborn and no baby in my belly.... now are you beginning to see the problem I am running in to?? Yea. I would either have to put preston in daycare,( which I refuse to do) or only work every other week. And shopko was the ONLY PLACE ON THE PLANET that would hire me for every other week only. So I am running into this problem of I feel like we have no money, and I basically have no way of getting a real job. I don't know. Oh! But I did just get my CNA certification renewed so I might be able to find something that would work there........ Needless to say I have alot on my mind so you might be hearing from me more often in the future..... But ta ta for now.........