Waaaaa!

My baby is a month old today. :( Enough said.

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Well, the last three weeks have been quite interesting!! Gunner is a pretty good baby at this point and only cries for a little while at night. We had some problems at first getting him to eat 8 to 12 times a day and quite frankly I don't remember feeding Preston that much. He would just want to sleep through some of his feedling so then it seemed like I was feeding him all day every day... But now he is on a schedule and is doing much better thankfully!

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Preston does not like baby Gunner very much at this point and definitely doesn't want to touch him unless it is absolutely necessary. He will try to give him back his binky and kiss him on the head before bed, and that is about it.

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My recovery after this C-section has been a complete 180 from the last one!! I stopped taking pain medication 5 days out and at this point barely notice that I had surgery three weeks ago! I am so very glad.

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I took both kids out today for the first time and it went over without a hitch... Although it was FREEZING and made me not want to go out until maybe April....

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I got a touch of post-partum depression for a few days after the birth and was seriously considering not having any more children.... and I couldn't figure out why I would want to do this to myself.... Am I wierd??

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Kacey has been a saint through all of this and has taken care of my every need.. I am so grateful to have him in my life. I don't know what I would do without him!

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I am so grateful that my Father in Heaven would trust me with another child.. Honestly, Preston is a handful. Some days lately (most days) I feel like all I do is scream at him all day and he just ignores me all day. I don't know what to do to entertain him and keep him out of trouble..And I DON'T want to be that mom that is ALWAYS screaming at her kids... Any ideas??

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I need to start my children's blogs. Haven't gotten around to it yet.

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Need to register for school. The question is, two classes or three?? Hmm...

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That is all for now.

Introducing...

Gunner G Braegger

11.12.09

8 lbs 14 oz

20 in long

born at 801 am

Mom and baby are busy trying to figure each other out!! Both are doing well!

The worst part

I have decided that the worst part about pregnancy for me is the hurrying to get everything ready just to sit here and wait part...... I am 38 weeks and 4 days pregnant and my back is KILLING me!! I am pretty much over being nervous and just excited to have my baby.... on Thursday!!! YAY!! And since Preston won't even be able to come to the hospital to see us, I am going to be really anxious to get home. I tried to explain to him the last few days what is going to happen, like I would be in the hospital for a few days and he will be hanging out with his aunt and uncle, and that the doctor is going to cut my stomach open to get baby Gunner out, and he seems like he understands, but who knows!! And we watch a baby story on TLC and he will say "is that what you baby is going to be like??" and I reply "Yes."... I feel kind of bad that he won't be getting all of the attention anymore, but it's good for him, right?

Halloween 09'

This year for Halloween we went to the Willard Trunk-r-Treat... Preston got a ton of candy and did such a good job waiting his turn at each car...I was impressed. He was a biker this year and both of his parents were poor-sports and didn't dress up...

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(Preston is not into posing for the camera, or even looking at the camera for more than 2 seconds for that matter, but I did manage to get two semi-decent pictures of him)

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This is him smiling for the camera

And this is his "mean" face.....(Hee hee)

And of course we went to each of the grandparents house trick-or-treating..... That may be the only advantage of having divorced parents....:)
And we pretty much didn't do anything else for Halloween. No decorating, no hunting for the perfect pumpkin...... Not even a hay ride or corn maze. Maybe next year. Maybe.

Life, currently.....

Here are my jumbled thoughts for the day.....

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*Here is my and my boy at 37 weeks..... We are counting down the days until he gets here(12)!! I am excited and also terrified to have another c-section... After all, it is major surgery and I didn't have a great recovery last time. Hopefully, I will be able to remember the first month of Gunner's life and it won't just be a fog.....

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*I am feeling very grateful for such supportive family and friends that seem just as excited as me for the new man to come into our lives! Thank you! It is kind of bitter-sweet that my pregnancy is almost over. On the one hand, I am SO excited to meet him, see what he looks like, hold him, and have Preston meet him..... On the other hand I don't know what the future holds for us and if we will have the same infertility trials that we had to get this one here. It is always on the back of my mind.

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*I was looking through blogs the other day and found out you can print your blog into a book to keep, like a journal and scrapbook in one!! Since I suck at both, I am going to try and post once or twice a week and then print out a book for every year for us to look at. I think I will do a separate one for each of the kids, too.

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*My mom threw me a fun baby shower a few weeks ago for family and friends that didn't get to go to Preston's shower, and it was awesome!! We are stocked with baby clothes for the winter thanks to my support system. I felt kind of stupid having ANOTHER baby shower when I already had one for Preston, but no one else seemed to care! There was good food and good company and I saw alot of people I don't get to see very often.

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* I have been trying to find new ways to entertain Preston and do fun things at home with him and want to keep doing these things as much as possible.... such as art projects, teaching him his ABC's, and making playdough. It is very hard for me to come up with fun ideas for a three year old, so I have been relying very heavily on other people's ideas for this....i.e. other people's blogs...... I am so grateful to have the opportunity to be a mother... Some days I find myself just going through the motions and not cherishing the time I have during these early years...I really want to try and be the best mom I can be and focus all my attention on my boy(s)-not always an easy task for me. Sometimes it is just easier to sit him in front of sponge-bob and surf the internet for Christmas presents, ya know? I am going to work really hard to give him all of my attention and love.

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* NOTHING fits my poor body anymore. I basically alternate between two pairs of sweats every day that are long enough for me. That is one part of pregnancy I won't be sad to see go ....

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* I am really excited for Thanksgiving. And for New Moon to come out. ;)

32 Weeks

Well, here I am at 32 weeks! We went to the doctor yesterday and Gunner is measuring a week and a half ahead of schedule so I am either going to A) have another big baby or B) he may come early. It made me so excited for him to come!! This month we haven't done a whole lot.... We went to Lagoon at the end of August and had a lot of fun and the whole month of September we have basically been up to our elbows in peaches!! Thankfully that is over now so I can find something productive to do at my own house to take up my time... October is going to be filled with hunting, hunting, and more hunting and maybe a little Halloween :) Kacey has a spike elk tag he hopes to fill and I have a general Northern deer tag.... and also grouse hunting which is my favorite!!! I am getting so excited for our long- awaited arrival and also a little scared at the same time because it has been a while since I had a new baby.........

Fishing

We like to fish. And hunt. And all of that outdoorsy stuff. We have been fishing a few times this summer, but not as much as we'd like. One day we took the boat and and one day we went to a fish hatchery. Preston liked going on the boat, but was having a hard time catching anything and got bored after a couple hours. Long story short, he ended up hooking Kacey on the nose with a lure because he was swinging it in the water like a wildman.....

Getting ready to go out on the water...

He liked driving the boat. Alot.

The catch of the day!!!!! Not!
This was the catch of the day!!! Pretty Nice!!

And this was our excursion to the fish hatchery. Preston had so much fun and caught 6 fish within a span of about 30 minutes..... We will definitely go back.

Him and his bucket of fish. He was trying to catch them again out of the bucket, it was really funny. And I have mentioned this before, but my child cannot make a normal face in a picture. Must take after Grandma S....... :)