SO, does anyone else think it is as funny as I do that I haven't posted in like a year?? Cause I think it is hilarious! A lot has changed in the last year, and it has been quite the ride. It went something like this......
February.... I applied to nursing school, fully expecting not to get in, because I don't even have a degree yet.
May comes, and I get a letter from one of the schools I applied for letting me know I didn't get in. Boo.
Get another letter from another school telling me that I was an alternate. Yay? Well, sort of... If no one flakes out before school starts, I don't get a spot. So I basically thought of it as I didn't get in....
A week later, I get a letter saying Just kidding, you have actually been accepted to the LPN program at OWATC. That was the point that the freak out began. I do not do well with change, at all. So of course, I was worried about all the things that could go wrong, or wouldn't work out, instead of being excited I got in. Needless to say, that was 9 months ago, and I will be a LPN in 3 months or so. I couldn't have done it without my mother-in-law, and my little sister Lindsey. They watch my sweet Gunner every week, without complaining. I feel so lucky to have them.
On another note, I am sure you all are tired of hearing my whining about infertility, but I am still dealing with it unfortunately. I haven't been to the doctor to get meds for it yet, but otherwise it isn't working, if you know what I mean. I have done pretty well this time around since I was pretty much expecting it. If I don't think about it, then I don't get angry and have uneasy feelings. I am thinking of trying essential oils, but I am skeptical of them. Oh well, we will see.
Kacey has been busy chugging away at work. He works SO much. He works 6 days a week three weeks out of the month, and has one Saturday off a month. And he never complains. I have told you before, he is the perfect man.
Preston started kindergarten in August, and I was SO worried we would have problems with him because he is more on the impulsive side, and he doesn't have a volume sensor in his body, so he yells constantly. However, he has done SO well! His teacher sends home notes saying how good he is in school, and he even got in the Principal's 200 club for his good behavior! I am one proud mama. Now, we just need to work on his behavior at home. (If I can figure out how :)
Gunner is getting SO big. He turned two years old in November, which I still can't believe. He is my sweet baby. He is saying tons of words and says whole sentences as well. I am so lucky to be their mom. :)
We weren't able to sell our townhouse last year, and when school started we took it off the market. I knew I wouldn't be able to keep it in such immaculate condition, and couldn't expect my sister or mother-in-law to either. We will probably try again this summer. We have GOT to get a place with a yard for the boys.
Other than that, we are just living day-to-day, trying to survive these last few months of school. I am planning on going for my RN, if I don't get pregnant before August. So, I will probably be going for my RN :)
Friday, February 10, 2012
Monday, July 25, 2011
I just tried out the Food Storage Analyzer on the Emergency Essentials website.. It was very easy to use and I wouldn't have to figure out anything, the tool does it all for you! Awesome! I really like that you can not only add your big food storage items, but also your canned foods and other items you get from the grocery store!
Posted by j at 11:05 AM
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Bear with me.
No, I am not pregnant. Could be highly hormonal, though. Lately I have been feeling blah. Very blah. Sometimes I just get tired. Tired of not knowing what will happen in the future. Tired of trying to decide what I should be doing in my life and where I should be going. Should I work or should I not? Am I focusing on the wrong things?
I just happened to get to go to Relief Society today and our lesson was about work. I don't think it was any work in particular, but just work in general. We talked about the value of teaching your children how to work by doing work together with them. My Mom taught me a lot of things, but working was not one of them. She was a busy woman with 4 kids under the age of 6, and it was much easier for her to just quickly do the work herself rather than get one of us to help/do it. I can definitely see how much easier that can be at times. To this day I still struggle with knowing how to teach my kids to do things. For a long time I couldn't for the life of me figure out how to do simple everyday things(like clean the corners inside the windows, you know, where after you wipe them out they still have gunk?) and I couldn't understand why I didn't know how to do it. It was because my Mom never taught me, she just did it for me. And now I am trying my best to figure out how to teach MY kids the value of work. I am struggling.
I tend to get swept up in the worldly things that you don't really realize are worldly until that is all you think about and worry about. Like crafting(another thing my Mom is not gifted in). I dream of the day when I can find a pillow cover I like and immediately run downstairs and sew up one just like it without even breaking a sweat. I scour blogs daily looking for adorable new decorations I can make. And then yesterday I decided I don't want to. I don't have time for it. I am still trying to figure out how to feed my kids semi-nutritious meals three times and day and two snacks and keep the house clean on a daily basis. I just can't do it all.
Another bombshell was dropped on me today while I was reading the Ensign. There was a couple of articles in there that I am sure were put there specifically for me. You know, the ones where you are reading them and fighting back the tears at the same time? They were like that. The first was about staying out of debt. But the debt part wasn't the part that applied to me, it was the living within your means part. Why is it that no matter what we have, we always want more? The grass always seems greener on the other side. It is probably just me, but it always seems like everyone else has more and better things than me. And this crazy jealous part of me rears its ugly head and makes me think, why not me? Don't I deserve all of the things that so-and-so has?? Don't I deserve a house with a backyard that my boys can run wild through as long as they want?? Don't I deserve a new car, or a new flip HD camera, or an Ipad, or a new fridge, or new clothes whenever I want? And then I read the article and it talked about something I DON'T think about. There are people out there who look at me and what I have, and their crazy jealous part comes out. And then the guilt from being so ungrateful comes. Sometimes I get so wrapped up in the 'things' I think I need that I don't even realize what I already have; The PERFECT husband who seriously treats me better than a queen. The most adorable two boys in the universe. We are all HEALTHY and ALIVE. We have a roof over our heads. We have cars that get us from point A to point B(and that's all we really need). We have food to eat. We have all our bills paid every month. We have insurance. Kacey has a good job and works for good people. We live close by family and friends. We have a church on every corner almost. We live in America. The list goes on and on.
So. I have decided to try and keep it simple. Do I really need all of these things that everyone else seems to have??
Nah. I have all I need right here. :)
I am just going to focus on the things that really matter.
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Got some new music playing in honor of V-day..... Enjoy. :)